Thoughts. Feelings. Desires.

Patience…

A small word but needs a big effort to be done. An emotion that needs to be trained and exercise. When we feel that somebody else is tormenting our pride but we have to keep our smile and be polite. How can people be so cruel?!? Why people feel that they have the right to step on our self-esteem and our beliefs?!?

I just lost my first client in Ascomaxx. They didn’t give me a big account but they sure left a big hole in my heart. The time that I’ve spent to lip-service them, the moments that they used to bring me down, the pressure that they have put in my mind. And all that is even more unworthy because I have to repay them back for the unprofesionalism and inconvenience that they have experienced.

Look on the bright side, I have learn that everybody makes mistakes and everybody is forgiven. They may have the right to not forget it but I will. These are the things that helps you to enter the stage of maturity of whatever… But at least I learn how to be patient…

It’s almost 8 PM and I’m still in the office waiting for the content of ASCOMAXX to be checked. My editor is in the next room listening to his Ipod and typing on his computer while I have no idea what else to do. I’ve listed all of the prospective clients… I’ve prepared proposals for tomorrow’s meeting… I’ve typed the quotation for some showrooms… And what else better to do than checking out my Friendster for any new friend request! =p

Then suddenly I remembered that I’ve promised lots of my friends to send them some pictures taken a few months ago. Not that I don’t keep my promises but this means I have to wait for hours to upload that enourmous file in my Hotmail account… Then I thought why don’t I just create a photo album in my Friendster account. So I open my account and I click on the "create photo album" icon…

But guess what?!? I have create my own blog first, then I create my photo album. Then my fellow Friendster staff, why the hell do you put that "create photo album" icon in the first place?!?! And then after I register and all… there’s like millions of words that I have to read to understand what I have to do with this blog.

Pheww… I had to go through all this trouble just to keep my promise!